can i not play this game anymore? seriously, it's no fun. never fun.
feels like every move i make, it's a wrong one. it'll just keep me going in circles and not settle in anything. i cannot rely on chance. i need to take risk. and this one, a huge one. something that will land me even into 'jail'. and only when i roll a double, i can get myself out of it and carry on with this game of life.

i love playing board games.
but definitely not this one.

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it's been a long time.
a really long time.

i should delete 'procrastination' in my life.
seems like i can't find anything that can keep me going. i keep pushing events/activities/tasks to a later date, which i know will eventually do me no good. even when i do find that drive, it escalates a few weeks by. i hope and pray that this one won't die down. this is my devotion to you.

on a lighter note, i'm gonna hit the gym later.
as for now, it's time to hit the pillows.

gnomeo and juliet (Y)
"don't have to eat too fast know. the food won't run away. maybe gnomeo and juliet will run away"

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this is insane. why am i still up at such an ungodly hour? and, i've been sleeping late the past few days. just can't get to sleep. staying up meddling with my phone. and the handphone lights are so not useful. usually, it'll tire my eyes. but, now it doesn't help a single bit. my eyes are still as huge as ever. cmi ah!

and, this stomach of mine is not making situation any better. growling like nobody's business. shall not get up to eat the junk food in the kitchen. must control!

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as the new year starts, i need to make a list of resolutions. and keep to them too. i know it wouldn't be at all easy but i'm trusting God. and that this year will be a year like never before. i need to see things differently and not in a negative perspective.

three days have passed.
all booked!
alone time tomorrow, hopefully! i need to sort out my mind and reflect upon certain things.
i keep saying i'm screwed - i really am! and i need to get myself out of this pit soon. very soon! i need to make a decision, fast! but not a rash one.

wedding dress is stuck in my head thanks to susanne.
and, i still don't know what mods to take. how now, brown cow?

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I don't feel the Christmas mood at all.

I seriously hope things wouldn't turn out as I've imagined.

Christmas is supposed to be a happy occasion. I need to feel happy.

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So, I'm back there for the third time. Well, I did manage to do some shopping while I'm there. Though, I'm not the least satisfied. I need my retail therapy like, soon! Please, take me out someone. I don't wanna be stuck at home writing cards all day, all night long.

I feel like sleeping and not wake up.
Do time machines really exist? If so, I would really want one for Christmas. TYVM.

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The feeling's very weird. And awkward. Can't believe how things changed after a week. The things which I would say 'least expected'. Leaves me all confused and vexed. My eyes can no longer take this anymore. My heart; they hurt. But I can't find the solution to my problem. The answers to my questions. Tell me what to do now!!

I need to make a choice; and fast.
I don't deserve any of this right?
What is this just all about?
I would really want to know.
Is it even possible?

I need to do the 'action word'.

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I'm so proud of myself seriously.
Almost done with all the Christmas presents and cards already. And it didn't take me very long to do them also. Now, all left with cards. Shall spend today writing them. And think of what to do with the other stuffs I made. I really feel like keeping them for myself.

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Camp's just a week back and I kinda miss it already. All the fun we had there. GCs, you guys did a marvelous job! Go GC, go GC, go!!!!

God sure moved mightily during camp. He spoke and I heard it clear. I need to accept it and let go. I need to take that step of faith and move on. I need to trust in His will and cling on to His promises. His love endures forever.

We'll be faithful to our calling
For You are able to keep us from falling
And in Your promise, we will trust
We'll be faithful to finish the work You begin in us

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Another successful surprise visit. He haven't got a clue. That's the way it should be. You not knowing I was even coming. Thank God for that guy who opened the door or I would have been waiting like some joker downstairs.

So now, no more seven days but six days. Seriously, I've been counting down to tomorrow. Cause by then, we'll be brought back to five months ago. Before school started. This time, different.

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